My sound therapy journey
Sound therapy was the vehicle I used ostensibly for my tinnitus path to wellness !
I figured early on that as sound’ was the major component in giving me hearing damage / then ‘sound’ could also be a huge factor in the treatment of my tinnitus….. feeding back the sounds from an external source and putting them back into my mind alongside my own noises. Wearing ear plugs when walking , driving , travelling was only making my tinnitus worse as I was blocking any sound out and so creating a very negative fear response to noises and most damaging to me was that I was falling into the trap of isolation!!!
We can protect ourselves to the point that we also take OURSELVES out of the equation and so begin the dreadful process of retiring into the background and eventually fading away. Visualisation was also key to the overall notion of feeding myself mental images that could initiate a glimmer of positivity. It’s so important to us all in our tinnitus community that we fully LET THE LIGHT AND SOUND back into our lives once more dear friends.
I kept being reminded that three steps forward would sometimes mean seven steps back ( especially in my case as I was willing to go further and try and test myself to the MAX ) ….. being a musician / even more so a drummer meant that I was living in constant fear that the accident would happen again and again and again … it did, but not nearly as bad or damaging as the previous two occasions.
I was being tough on myself when going to perform / either playing concerts or recording music as I would see myself as a gladiator fighting lions and tigers to the very death of my hearing existence! It sounds dramatic as I write this blog but only just recently have I learnt to rid myself of these thoughts and embrace the feeling of freedom that surrounds every aspect of the life that I aim to fully absorb.
The T-Minus therapy music constantly teaches and reminds me to leave windows open when possible to let the sound into my life once more and enjoy the fruits of of these glorious ( sometimes subtle, sometimes overpowering but never uninteresting or un stimulating. ) I made a huge point after I began making sound therapy to discipline myself to using it 8 hours per day every day …… I treated it as if I was training for a sport or an important event.
stuck to my rigid regime and kept notes … ( dietary, water intake, sound intake , good days , bad days ) plenty of poor days and not many good days but was very happy with the ever increasing OKAY days…….. they began to mount up steadily! I noticed an improvement after 3 plus months. But masses of improvement after one yr ( but this was for me ) I did a lot of my listening when It was during the night time hours and I just let it play all night and with the volume set just below my own tinnitus I would then begin the process of letting my brain do a lot of the work with the added benefit that my emotions were being somewhat cushioned ( this allowed me the breathing space to put the tinnitus outside of my head / and start to get my focus on a new reality ) I prefer at night to abort the idea of using headphones as I want sound to start sinking in from every source / wether it be the music , cars outside , birds singing , fridges popping ! It’s all part of the awareness of all things ‘SOUND’.